I have once again been absent... but there are reasons... and I am not permanently gone, just pausing...
I haven't been well. This sinus infection gets me down. I always have it, but it is in different stages of how bad. Lately, I guess with spring we are in the icky stage...
I had blood work done last Tuesday. Thursday, my sinus infection took a turn to a sick sinus infection... Friday, thinking ahead for the holiday weekend, I called my nurse asking for a change in antibiotics. Little did I know how that would change my weekend plans. I was admitted to the hospital! Dr Carey decided that one year of constant antibiotics had not worked so we should do IV antibiotics. I tried to put him off until Tuesday, but it was a no-go. "Dr wants you at the hospital tomorrow morning." "How long will I be there?" "Plan on a week at least." "!!! GULP !!!"
Here I am! I have 2 different antibiotics running into my IV's, just rotating out. I am taking one by mouth. I am getting iron (I am anemic) and potassium. And I am stuck in a hospital room at least one week.
He told me yesterday they will put a PICC line in for long term (at least 2 weeks) of IV antibiotics. Depending on how I tolerate them, he will determine when I get to go home. The nurses assure me not to get my hopes up for short term; Dr Carey's patients get long visits due to their immunodeficiencies. I am on the cancer ward. Cancer patients take chemo which lowers their immunities. I am in isolation. People who come in have to have masks on. I don't see faces - just eyes... and I cannot have fresh fruits and veggies. Do you know how much that sucks? I LOVE fresh fruits and veggies!
I am not going to lie - I am a little unnerved. My immunodeficient friends say this is common - to get used to it. How in the world can I get used to this? And I DON'T WANNA!!
I want to go back to oblivious... not knowing what I am facing... what could happen... what could likely be my demise... I want to go back to my old, fast, amazing, busy, adventurous and fun life.
I want to be absent minded about my health.
I just want to be absent in this whole process.
What do you think God has in mind for me? I like to try (!) to figure this out... So far, for nearly everything that has happened in my life, God has led me to the reason it did... so could I be a find for the cure for someone's illness someday? Who knows?
I just know God is not finished molding me yet because I still grace His earth. I am not absent.
So here I am! You might see a lot of me. I have plenty of isolation time. I might find my way here more often, absentmindedly posting about sweet nothings going on in my life.